Sunday

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.


In the fell clutch of circumstance

I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.


Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.


It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate:

I am the captain of my soul.


- "Invictus" is a short poem by the English poet William Ernest Henley. The title is Latin for "invincible." It was first published in 1875.

Saturday

All the lonely people

Mustached bearded teary eyed
For many days, months and years
The Father Mackenzie's

Haggard shrunken no more tears left
For many days,months and years
The Eleanor Rigby's

All the lonely people, where do they all come from?

[ अकेला Eensaam I vetmuar وحيد Адзінока Самотен ]
[ Solitari 孤独的 孤獨的Usamljen Osamělý Ensom ]
[ Üksildane Mag-isa Yksinäinen Seul Einsam Μοναχικός]
[בודד Egyedül Einmana Sepi Uaigneach 寂しい 외로운 ]
[ Vientuļš Осамен Solitarju تنهایی Samotny Singur ]
[ Одиноко Усамљен Osamelý Pweke เปล่า เปลี่ยว ]
[ Yalnız Самотньо Cô đơn Lonely עלנט ]

Right here, from you and me.

Universally.


Tuesday

True Lies












Below is an excerpt from here

"(…) we have based our society on the assumption that deciding to lie or to tell the truth is within our conscious control. But Harvard’s Joshua Greene and Joseph Paxton say this assumption may be flawed and are probing whether honesty may instead be the result of controlling a desire to lie (a conscious process) or of not feeling the temptation to lie in the first place (an automatic process)..."

This claim, if proved to be true, may have significant impact on our perception of lying – changing it from a much criticized characteristic to a more tolerable form of evolutionary trait. Indeed, deception is the most common survival tactic used by man today replacing ancient man’s need for protected space and the use of sharp tools to defend at the top spot.

This Psychology Today article says

"Most people (…) lie once or twice a day—almost as often as they snack from the refrigerator or brush their teeth. Both men and women lie in approximately a fifth of their social exchanges lasting 10 or more minutes; over the course of a week they deceive about 30 percent of those with whom they interact one-on-one. Furthermore, some types of relationships, such as those between parents and teens, are virtual magnets for deception: College students lie to their mothers in one out of two conversations"

Even without the study, it is a well known fact that people need to deceive in different forms to succeed in life whether it be flattering, lying, deluding, talking behind the back, putting up a false front, living in borrowed splendor, wearing a mask, hiding behind convention or playing a role for others and for oneself-in short. Whether it be that extra embellishment of the resume, that odd excuse for showing up late for work or that hobby mentioned at the first date. Neitzsche in his 1893 essay “On Truth and Lies in a Nonmoral Sense” says

"As a means for the preserving of the individual, the intellect unfolds its principle powers in dissimulation, which is the means by which weaker, less robust individuals preserve themselves-since they have been denied the chance to wage the battle for existence with horns or with the sharp teeth of beasts of prey"

He goes further to add

"(…)man permits himself to be deceived in his dreams every night of his life. His moral sentiment does not even make an attempt to prevent this, whereas there are supposed to be men who have stopped snoring through sheer will power."

Surprisingly, man who is quite the expert at deception and (supposedly) learning from failure is quite the sucker in getting deceived himself. In fact he permits it willingly. The biggest example of this is the entertainment industry in the form of movies, where day after day he will watch fantastic recreations of his fantasies on celluloid, knowing it to be unrealistic and yet deluding himself to the point of blind admiration of the actors on screen.

"(…)Insofar as the individual wants to maintain himself against other individuals, he will under natural circumstances employ the intellect mainly for dissimulation. But at the same time, from boredom and necessity, man wishes to exist socially and with the herd; therefore, he needs to make peace and strives accordingly to banish from his world at least the most flagrant bellum omni contra omnes."

If deceit is what we claim it to be - a tool needed for survival - where then, Neitzsche tries to understand, does man’s drive for truth come from? It comes in settings where he can drop his guard, mostly in the presence of family and close personal friends. He also indicates that while it is supposed to be common knowledge that everyone lies, we tend to ostracize those that confess to it, and adopt as friends and business partners those who do it covertly but don't confess to it.

"(…)What men avoid by excluding the liar is not so much being defrauded as it is being harmed by means of fraud. Thus, even at this stage, what they hate is basically not deception itself, but rather the unpleasant, hated consequences of certain sorts of deception. It is in a similarly restricted sense that man now wants nothing but truth: he desires the pleasant, life-preserving consequences of truth. He is indifferent toward pure knowledge which has no consequences; toward those truths which are possibly harmful and destructive he is even hostilely inclined."

Another very important derivation from the essay is that a myth that is perceived by the society at large as acceptable, very definitely becomes the “truth” and part of the canon, is duplicated and replicated for generations to come. Any deviation from these myths is deemed scandalous under the rubric of tradition. I can obviously give hundreds of examples from our blind faith in religious practices that hold no relevance to this day and age.

From the perspective of understanding truth and lies a classification that helps, is the division of man into two categories – the rational man and the irrational/intuitive man.

"(…)They both desire to rule over life: the former, by knowing how to meet his principle needs by means of foresight, prudence, and regularity; the latter, by disregarding these needs and, as an "overjoyed hero," counting as real only that life which has been disguised as illusion and beauty."

All our lives we struggle between these two poles. Scientifically proven fact is truth for the rational man, but that is immaterial and uninteresting to the intuitive man, who wants to believe a myth that keeps him safe, secure and happy. The rational man tries to measure distance to the sun but the intuitive man calls it God, creates anthropomorphic stories and worships it. Who can say who is better? After all, many of us are both rolled into one.

A dark and perfectly rational way of looking at our species is that we are extremely hypocritical. We deceive, because we have to survive, yet refuse to accept that we all do it, ostracizing anyone who tells the truth about the deception. Conveniently we don’t want to hear it. We lie in our daily lives, and yet want our politicians and business leaders to be honest! Talk about double standards. The takeaway from this should not be that we should not lie. Indeed if Joshua Greene and Joseph Paxton are right, then it is innate to us and there is no escaping it. No, we should instead stop expecting that our leaders will be perfectly honest. The expectation should be, that they be only as dishonest as to not harm the interests of the country and its people in a big way. The whole capitalistic model is based on greed (profits) but it is excessive greed and not greed that is the bane of our system.











In the end the debate between truth and lies is equivalent to the confrontation of Gandhi and Nietzsche - Who wins?


Further reading:

Arthur Miller’s famous play “Death of a Salesman” and the popular Hollywood film “The Invention of Lying” are highly recommended. Find Nietzsche’s original essay here.


Success & Failure

An very interesting talk defining the philosophy of success by Alain de Botton

The core idea is that the definition of success is often absorbed from external suggestion - if a person is a banker or a consultant he must be successful, being rich or achieving renown is success and so on. However, while these are completely untrue, they are ideas that are perceived as "successes" purely because of marketing and common perception and we tend to take them to be true. It is, as the speaker says, very important to have one's own definition of success.

This set me thinking. When do I think I will be successful?
  • When I am doing something that I am good at. Something that brings me respect and satisfaction.
  • When I have enough wealth to sustain me and my family
  • When I am in love with a beautiful girl who completes me and gives me a family.
  • When I have enough number of good friends who share my happiness and sorrows.

Sunday

The whole truth and nothing but the truth

My dear Giridhar,

Truth is God. Isn't this what Gandhi said?

Have you noticed how society has increasingly become a web of lies? People either don't want to hear the truth or can't stomach it. Wouldn't the whole world just be a much more pleasant place to live in if everyone spoke the truth?


Thursday

Being sick

Dear Krishna,

Sick with the flu. Have you noticed how one's brain stops caring about the random bit's and pieces of information that keep floating about when that happens? When you are sick only the most important things matter - you stop thinking about how you look or what the other person thinks of you or what are the consequences if you do this and so on. All worries and apprehensions connected with superficialities seem to vanish and a person can come back to the basics. It becomes easy to identify and separate the good friends from the rest. A person who brings you hot soup or invites you to play chess with him (knowing you are sick) because you are bored, are so easily the good friends.

The best part is simply that one automatically gets rid of the unnecessary clutter and inhibitions that clogs one's mind. That being said it's not fun to be sick for long. You miss out on doing so many things. Best is if you can take the learnings from being sick and apply it to when you are non-sick. Hope that makes sense :)

-Aditya

Monday

Beautiful Thorns

"Beautiful thorns await the man who is blindly allured by the scent of the sweet roses."

Winter is in the air. Another six months of sweaters, comforters and near total hibernation. And here I sit, at it's beginning, typing away. The last one and a half years have taught me a lot, stuff that is hard to put into words. Or at least a set of words that fit into one post. But no matter. I have enough time. The ice age didn't end in a day.




Friday

Rock Soup

To see how imaginative man can get about outer space watch 'Star Trek'. I have been fixated with Captain Jean-Luc Picard, Data, Commander Riker and whole ensemble cast of the Star Trek - The Next generation, for some time now. Check it out- in the last episode of the season one gets to see Jean-Luc and Q (who is an omnipotent being in the series akin to God) at the scence of the beginnings of life on Earth. They stand near a volcanic cave, apparently 2.5 billion years back, and point to a puddle of "goo" which contains as stated by Q, "the first time amino acids combine to form proteins on earth"

To quote,

"You see this? This is you. I'm serious! Right here, life is about to form on this planet for the very first time. A group of amino acids is about to combine to form the first protein. The building blocks of what you call life. Strange, isn't it, Jean-Luc? Everything you know...your entire civilization...it all begins right here in this little pond of goo. Oh look! There they go. The amino acids are moving closer...and closer...and closer! Awwww! Nothing happened! See what you've done?

Q, explaining to Picard how life on Earth never formed because of the anomaly



Couple of days back I surprised myself by thinking about the origin of the universe. Now, I am nowhere even close to the proponents of the Big Bang theory and other astrophycisists but then doesn't one have the right and obligation to think about problems that don't have fixed solutions and try to come up with a theory to satify oneself? It is said that Aristotle ,one of the first scientific minds in humanity, thoerized that matter is made up of five element types- fire,earth,water, air and ether. He said that these elements have their rightful place and matter moves towards these "righful places". He explained the rising of smoke, the sinking of bodies in matter, the falling of rain with this theory. We know this theory to be ridiculous today but what is important is that Aristotle thought about and solved the problem to his satisfaction.

Anyway I am digressing. I lay in bed as I thought. Time and Space are infinite. Consider a time billions and billions of years ago, when there was nothing but empty space, when complete pitch darkness filled the universe, there  would be no reference by which to define this existence. It is only when there is "something" in this pitch black space that time actually begins. In other words, my definition of t=0 would be when "something happens". Here I am talking of Change. Change is the quintessiential basis of life and non-life. If the whole universe would freeze right now, suspended in a state of permanent statis, time for me would end because I only think of time from one change to another. Time would have no meaning for me in a state of complete statis. 

So what is change? It is a conversion of one form of energy to another. Any conversion, however trivial, would consitute a change, an "event" so to speak. The energy of the universe is of course, constant. Energy can not be created out of nothing and neither can energy be destroyed. So if there was ever a period of time when the universe was nothing, a pitch black space then where would the energy be? I felt that energy would have to be in this darkness, in this nothingness. If there is intrinsic energy (due to mass) in every matter, then shouldn't there be energy omnipresent in this nothingness. It makes me think of the idea of "Force" that the Jedi knights in Star Wars are so fond of talking about. 

"And well you should not. For my ally in the Force. And a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. It's energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we...(Yoda pinches Luke's shoulder)...not this crude matter. (a sweeping gesture) You must feel the Force around you. (gesturing) Here, between you...me...the tree...the rock...everywhere! Yes, even between this land and that ship! "
- Yoda explaing the nature of the force to Luke,Star Wars - A New Hope

Ever since the beginning man has always found a strange solace is talking about an ever pervading power, sometimes calling it ether, sometime a force, or sometimes simply God. The Indian gurus in talking of their  enlightenment say that the experience of enlightenment is a "feeling of life in all objects - animate and inanimate" or an expression of "unity of all people...that we are all the same, the same being" also go back to the presence of this energy. 

There are example of scientists who having tried explaining the origin of the universe with the theory of evolution and others, have utterly failed and finally came back to idea of a "maker", be it God or an alien species.  It is my belief that such a force, such a field of omnipresent energy indeed does exist, manifest in every thing - living and non-living, that the purpose of everything is change - for without it there is nothingness and that the living beings are nothing but instruments of this change. Consider this - all living beings do is consume Oxygen, Water and Carbohydrates and with the process of combustion convert this energy into locomotion, running, talking, thinking etc. So in effect, all we do is convert energy to bring about change. 

Anyway all this is theorizing and I have no proof for all this. But it makes sense to me now and that is what is important. Hopefully someone in the future finds a way of quantifying and measuring this mysterious energy. Till then, I will satisfy myself by watch Star Trek and you should too!